Our Endless Numbered Days by Claire Fuller

Peggy Hillcoat is eight years old when her survivalist father, James, takes her from their home in London to a remote hut in the woods and tells her that the rest of the world has been destroyed. Deep in the wilderness, Peggy and James make a life for themselves. They repair the hut, bathe in water from the river, hunt and gather food in the summers and almost starve in the harsh winters. They mark their days only by the sun and the seasons.

When Peggy finds a pair of boots in the forest and begins a search for their owner, she unwittingly begins to unravel the series of events that brought her to the woods and, in doing so, discovers the strength she needs to go back to the home and mother she thought she’d lost.

After Peggy's return to civilization, her mother learns the truth of her escape, of what happened to James on the last night out in the woods, and of the secret that Peggy has carried with her ever since.

Woah!! What did I just read? I can't decide which way my feelings are going, I feel like I had a very mixed relationship with this book. On goodreads I was very very torn between giving this a 3 and a 4 stars rating. Maybe 3.5 would be most suitable.

Peggy is a 8 year old girl, daughter to a famous German pianist and her much younger husband. Her father, James, is a survivalist, always preparing Peggy for the worse case scenario. Testing her on packing her rucksack in record time and other things. When her mother Ute goes back on tour and Peggy is left behind with her dad they start to camp in the garden. But one day the dad takes Peggy and they go on a 'trip', eventually ending up in a deep deep Forrest looking for die Hütte. Which is where they start a sort of life, living of the land and the animals. After a big storm Peggy's father tells her that the storm has destroyed the world and they are the only survivors. Years go by and things become stranger while they also settle in a sort of routine. 

I don't actually know where to begin, my feelings are all over the place. I loved the idea of this book, this is why I requested it and I was really eager to start. However at first I found myself struggling to really give it my undevided attention. The writing isn't always easy flowing and I sometimes found things almost hard to imagine. But I kept going and in the end I am glad I did. 

It's rather disturbing in many different ways, being a mother myself this would be my biggest nightmare. Although this book doesn't involve the mothers loss of her daughter. 

It was so strange to see how such a young girl adjusted to this immense change in her life purely because she should have no reason to mistrust her father no matter what he says and how strange it seems. Peggy is an amazing character never really complaining, being very useful and surviving this crazy ordeal. Although at first it's almost like a holiday and adventure, the father trying to make things very special for her by building his daughter a piano and teaching her how to play on the soundless instrument. But soon cracks start to appear in many ways. 

Hauntingly scary is how this becomes her life, almost forgetting who she was before. Slowly being shaped into this completely different person that she was meant to be. We get to see this strange journey through a little girls eyes, a girl that also has a great imagination.

It was an incredibly interesting read, very different to anything I have read before. I do fear tho that some readers will struggle with the German words here and there. I could imagine this being hard going if u wasn't lucky enough to be fluent in German like myself. But in no way does that spoil the book. 

The end had me very surprised, shocked and even confused and sad. But I won't spoil that one for you. 

All in all this has been a rather huge up and down for me. But it was worth a read and this story will stay with me for some time. 

Thank you to Net Galley and the publisher for my copy in exchange for my honest opinion. 

Weekly Wrap Up and Stacking the Shelves

Weekly Wrap Up

I have only managed to read to books this week, almost just the one. It's been a busy week with Christmas coming up, both at work and at home. But I managed to squeeze some in here and there.

The first one I finished is Queen of always, I have read the first two books a while back and I am so glad I finally picked up the last one. Even tho I am sad it's the end now. I have absolutely loved these books so much so I would gladly have many more...

 Blurb: LONG LIVE THE QUEEN

If her time at court has taught Catherine anything, it’s that there is no room for weakness in Imperial Russia. With the Empress’ health failing and rumors of a change in the line of succession, her place in the royal line is once more in jeopardy. Tormented by her sadistic husband and his venomous mistress, Catherine must once more walk the fine line between pleasure and politics—between scandal and survival.

When her young son becomes the target of those rebelling against Peter’s reign, Catherine will have to rise up to protect herself, her child, and her nation from his unstable and potentially catastrophic rule. This means putting herself at odds with the most dangerous man she’s ever known, trusting those who once proved to be her enemies, and turning a nation against its sovereign. In the ultimate battle for the crown, new alliances will be forged, loyalties will be tested, and blood will be shed.

The 2nd book I sort of had a bit of a love and hate relationship with but more tomorrow in my review ...

Blurb: Peggy Hillcoat is eight years old when her survivalist father, James, takes her from their home in London to a remote hut in the woods and tells her that the rest of the world has been destroyed. Deep in the wilderness, Peggy and James make a life for themselves. They repair the hut, bathe in water from the river, hunt and gather food in the summers and almost starve in the harsh winters. They mark their days only by the sun and the seasons.

When Peggy finds a pair of boots in the forest and begins a search for their owner, she unwittingly begins to unravel the series of events that brought her to the woods and, in doing so, discovers the strength she needs to go back to the home and mother she thought she’d lost.

After Peggy's return to civilization, her mother learns the truth of her escape, of what happened to James on the last night out in the woods, and of the secret that Peggy has carried with her ever since.

Stacking the Shelves

Hosted by Tynga’s Reviews

My first book here is also at the top of this post, I downloaded Queen of always and started reading it straight away.

The 2nd book is Jihadi - A love story. I have had my eye on this one for a while, and couldn't be more thankful to Liz for sending me a copy to read, review and hopefully also include in a blog tour. So watch this space.

Blurb: A former intelligence agent stands accused of terrorism, held without charge in a secret overseas prison. His memoir is in the hands of a psychologist with her own agenda, and her annotations paint a much darker picture. As the story unravels, we are forced to assess the truth for ourselves, and decide not only what really happened, but who is the real terrorist. Peopled by a diverse and unforgettable cast of characters, whose reliability as narrators is always questioned, and with a multi-layered plot heaving with unexpected and often shocking developments, Jihadi: A Love Story is an intelligent thriller that asks big questions.

The 3rd book was send to me by the author who approached me on Twitter and I absolute love the sound of this book. Can't wait to start this. Thank you so much Rita!! 

Blurb: Secrets don't stay secret for long...

She spent her whole life being the perfect daughter, the perfect girlfriend, and was all ready to become the perfect wife.

But after ditching her fiancé at the altar and escaping to Chicago, she marries smouldering stranger Joe Petrozzi three weeks after meeting him in a bar. At least this time, there’s no chance of cold feet.

Married life starts out great: there’s the new job, a gorgeous, enigmatic husband and money's no issue.

So what if she’s kept a few secrets from Joe – like where all her money came from. Joe’s been keeping secrets from her, too.

But his might just get her killed.

Queen Of Always by Sherry D. Flickin

LONG LIVE THE QUEEN

If her time at court has taught Catherine anything, it’s that there is no room for weakness in Imperial Russia. With the Empress’ health failing and rumors of a change in the line of succession, her place in the royal line is once more in jeopardy. Tormented by her sadistic husband and his venomous mistress, Catherine must once more walk the fine line between pleasure and politics—between scandal and survival.

When her young son becomes the target of those rebelling against Peter’s reign, Catherine will have to rise up to protect herself, her child, and her nation from his unstable and potentially catastrophic rule. This means putting herself at odds with the most dangerous man she’s ever known, trusting those who once proved to be her enemies, and turning a nation against its sovereign. In the ultimate battle for the crown, new alliances will be forged, loyalties will be tested, and blood will be shed.

I am always stuck when doing a review of a book that's not the start of a series! How much do you give away of the story? You don't want to spoil the books before to others who haven't read them yet. So I try to be vague about the actual story and rather try and tell you what my feelings are on the book!!

I absolute loved this book!! Well not just this book but the whole series. I don't know much about historical fiction but u am now a big fan. 

In book 3 everything is stepped up a notch. Peters hate gets to a new high, he has been tormenting Catherine trough all of them but in this book it left me speechless, broke my heart and made me cry. 

Catherine's heart is still as big as always. Her love life is still one to shout about and its a story completely on its own. But what is most amazing about Catherine is to see how much she has grown. What an amazing, strong, fair, proud and courageous women she has become. Long gone is the shy and naive girl that arrived at court in the first book. She will have to make choices that would have seemed impossible for her at first. She is an amazing heroin.

Like the books before I thoroughly enjoyed this one too, it's a fast paced page turner. A great quick read which I am very sad is over. 

I always feared if I read anything historical I might find it hard to understand some parts. But never in this series, you don't,  in any way have to be knowledgable. It doesn't dwell on the actual history. It's much more then a story about Catherine becoming the queen of Russia. It's about all the struggle and heartache on her way to the throne. About growing into a true queen. 

I can't recommend this series enough. A total emotional roller coaster. 

WWW Wednesday (16th December)

WWW Wednesday is a meme hosted by Sam at Taking on a World of Words. It’s open for anyone to join in and is a great way to share what you’ve been reading! All you have to do is answer three questions and share a link to your blog in the comments section of Sam’s blog.

The three Ws are:

What are you currently reading?

What did you recently finish reading?

What do you think you’ll read next?

I am currently reading:

Blurb: Peggy Hillcoat is eight years old when her survivalist father, James, takes her from their home in London to a remote hut in the woods and tells her that the rest of the world has been destroyed. Deep in the wilderness, Peggy and James make a life for themselves. They repair the hut, bathe in water from the river, hunt and gather food in the summers and almost starve in the harsh winters. They mark their days only by the sun and the seasons.

When Peggy finds a pair of boots in the forest and begins a search for their owner, she unwittingly begins to unravel the series of events that brought her to the woods and, in doing so, discovers the strength she needs to go back to the home and mother she thought she’d lost.

After Peggy's return to civilization, her mother learns the truth of her escape, of what happened to James on the last night out in the woods, and of the secret that Peggy has carried with her ever since.

I have recently finished...

Blurb: Best friends Caddy and Rosie are inseparable. Their differences have brought them closer, but as she turns sixteen Caddy begins to wish she could be a bit more like Rosie – confident, funny and interesting. Then Suzanne comes into their lives: beautiful, damaged, exciting and mysterious, and things get a whole lot more complicated. As Suzanne’s past is revealed and her present begins to unravel, Caddy begins to see how much fun a little trouble can be. But the course of both friendship and recovery is rougher than either girl realises, and Caddy is about to learn that downward spirals have a momentum of their own.

Blurb:When you've forgotten how to live, help can arrive in mysterious ways… Successful artist Isabel Ramsay has never come to terms with the tragic death of her mother. Haunted by what happened, Isabel finds her own life spiralling out of control until, one winter’s day, she gives up, unable to bear the pain of living any longer. Yet somehow she wakes up, remembering a vision of a mysterious woman who has saved her. But alone in a locked house, surely that’s impossible? With her family and friends worried out of their minds, her husband Angus finds a companion to watch over Isabel while he's away from home. Warm, wise Clara can connect with Isabel in a way no one else can, helping her face up to her painful past, rediscover her passion for art and become brave enough to live her life again. But there’s a mystery surrounding Clara: who is she, and why does Isabel feel she’s known her all her life? Don't Be Afraid is a beautiful, life-affirming story of how even the most difficult struggles can be overcome and how help can arrive in mysterious ways.

Blurb: LONG LIVE THE QUEEN

If her time at court has taught Catherine anything, it’s that there is no room for weakness in Imperial Russia. With the Empress’ health failing and rumors of a change in the line of succession, her place in the royal line is once more in jeopardy. Tormented by her sadistic husband and his venomous mistress, Catherine must once more walk the fine line between pleasure and politics—between scandal and survival.

When her young son becomes the target of those rebelling against Peter’s reign, Catherine will have to rise up to protect herself, her child, and her nation from his unstable and potentially catastrophic rule. This means putting herself at odds with the most dangerous man she’s ever known, trusting those who once proved to be her enemies, and turning a nation against its sovereign. In the ultimate battle for the crown, new alliances will be forged, loyalties will be tested, and blood will be shed.

I plan to read next...

Blurb: An untested young princess must claim her throne, learn to become a queen, and combat a malevolent sorceress in an epic battle between light and darkness in this spectacular debut—the first novel in a trilogy.

Young Kelsea Raleigh was raised in hiding after the death of her mother, Queen Elyssa, far from the intrigues of the royal Keep and in the care of two devoted servants who pledged their lives to protect her. Growing up in a cottage deep in the woods, Kelsea knows little of her kingdom's haunted past . . . or that its fate will soon rest in her hands.

Long ago, Kelsea's forefathers sailed away from a decaying world to establish a new land free of modern technology. Three hundred years later, this feudal society has divided into three fearful nations who pay duties to a fourth: the powerful Mortmesne, ruled by the cunning Red Queen. Now, on Kelsea's nineteenth birthday, the tattered remnants of the Queen's Guard—loyal soldiers who protect the throne—have appeared to escort the princess on a perilous journey to the capital to ascend to her rightful place as the new Queen of the Tearling.

Though born of royal blood and in possession of the Tear sapphire, a jewel of immense power and magic, Kelsea has never felt more uncertain of her ability to rule. But the shocking evil she discovers in the heart of her realm will precipitate an act of immense daring, throwing the entire kingdom into turmoil—and unleashing the Red Queen's vengeance. A cabal of enemies with an array of deadly weapons, from crimson-caped assassins to the darkest blood magic, plots to destroy her. But Kelsea is growing in strength and stealth, her steely resolve earning her loyal allies, including the Queen's Guard, led by the enigmatic Lazarus, and the intriguing outlaw known simply as "the Fetch."

Kelsea's quest to save her kingdom and meet her destiny has only just begun. Riddled with mysteries, betrayals, and treacherous battles, Kelsea's journey is a trial by fire that will either forge a legend . . . or destroy her.

Blurb: Amy Stevenson was the biggest news story of 1995. Only fifteen years old, Amy disappeared walking home from school one day and was found in a coma three days later. Her attacker was never identified and her angelic face was plastered across every paper and nightly news segment.

Fifteen years later, Amy lies in the hospital, surrounded by 90’s Britpop posters, forgotten by the world until reporter Alex Dale stumbles across her while researching a routine story on vegetative patients.

Remembering Amy’s story like it was yesterday, she feels compelled to solve the long-cold case.

The only problem is, Alex is just as lost as Amy—her alcoholism has cost her everything including her marriage and her professional reputation.

In the hopes that finding Amy’s attacker will be her own salvation as well, Alex embarks on a dangerous investigation, suspecting someone close to Amy.

Told in the present by an increasingly fragile Alex and in dream-like flashbacks by Amy as she floats in a fog of memories, dreams, and music from 1995, Try Not to Breathe unfolds layer by layer to a breathtaking conclusion.

Blurb: Siglufjörður: an idyllically quiet fishing village in Northern Iceland, where no one locks their doors – accessible only via a small mountain tunnel. Ari Thór Arason: a rookie policeman on his first posting, far from his girlfriend in Reykjavik – with a past that he’s unable to leave behind. When a young woman is found lying half-naked in the snow, bleeding and unconscious, and a highly esteemed, elderly writer falls to his death in the local theatre, Ari is dragged straight into the heart of a community where he can trust no one, and secrets and lies are a way of life. An avalanche and unremitting snowstorms close the mountain pass, and the 24-hour darkness threatens to push Ari over the edge, as curtains begin to twitch, and his investigation becomes increasingly complex, chilling and personal. Past plays tag with the present and the claustrophobic tension mounts, while Ari is thrust ever deeper into his own darkness – blinded by snow, and with a killer on the loose

Don't Be Afraid by Daniela Sacerdoti

When you've forgotten how to live, help can arrive in mysterious ways… Successful artist Isabel Ramsay has never come to terms with the tragic death of her mother. Haunted by what happened, Isabel finds her own life spiralling out of control until, one winter’s day, she gives up, unable to bear the pain of living any longer. Yet somehow she wakes up, remembering a vision of a mysterious woman who has saved her. But alone in a locked house, surely that’s impossible? With her family and friends worried out of their minds, her husband Angus finds a companion to watch over Isabel while he's away from home. Warm, wise Clara can connect with Isabel in a way no one else can, helping her face up to her painful past, rediscover her passion for art and become brave enough to live her life again. But there’s a mystery surrounding Clara: who is she, and why does Isabel feel she’s known her all her life? Don't Be Afraid is a beautiful, life-affirming story of how even the most difficult struggles can be overcome and how help can arrive in mysterious ways.

I will be completely honest, as a total lover of beautiful covers I wouldn't normally have picked this one up. But I jumped at the opportunity to review this and I am glad I did.

This book is about Isabel/Bell who is currently suffering from depression. Once a woman full of laughter and life she now is to afraid to leave the house or let anyone in. The story starts at her worse time possible, with Isabel trying to take her own life. But while doing so she sees a women in her house, which is impossible isn't it? She survives the attempt, just barely. While in hospital she promises her husband she will finally start taking her medicine, if only he doesn't have her looked after by some strangers at all times. Once back at home her Husband Angus looks for someone to look after his wife, while he is away working. Clare is new to the village and Isabel's brother in law has the feeling she is the right person to look after her. So Clare, once a midwife and nurse, is hired but will Isabel allow her to come into the house? Surprisingly even for Isabel Clare just feels right. She lets her into the house and into her life. Slowly confiding in her about her fears and her past. 

There is just one thing she is hiding from both her husband and Clare...

But who is Clare really? Is there much more to her then meets the eye? 

This book was so beautiful. Very touching and eye opening. We forget that depression is a real illness. One that takes over our life's and body until we are almost unrecognizable. 

It was so heartbreaking to see Isabel struggle with every day life, to see her fight her demons. Things we take for granted like talking on the phone to our friends and family. We get to see what goes on in her mind and slowly uncover where her fears come from.

Isabel is an incredible character. It's amazing to see her slowly going in the right direction. Step by step. Knowing that she wants to get better and not only for her husband but for herself too. She misses being able to draw and work. And she always feels guilty for making her husband suffer most of all.

Her husband is just amazing in all of this. It's the sort of man we all dream about. Even tho he finds himself doubting his decisions at times, he is an absolute rock and totally in love with his wife. No matter what, he stands by his wife.

Clare is exactly what Isabel needs. She cheers her up when her moods get bad. She is a friend a listener and carer all in one. And she is so much more then meets the eye.

This book almost reminded me slightly of Mary Poppins, Clare turning up just when she is needed the most and nothing else seems to help. 

It's a heartbreaking and at the same time heartwarming story that has this beautiful magical twist. I have found myself wishing Isabel a full recovery all the way through. 

It's not my usual kind of book. But I did thoroughly enjoy it. Even tho this is the 4th book in the Glenn Avich series, you don't need to have read the other 3 to understand this one. I believe they all happen in the same place but they are all stories about different women. 

Thank you so much Black & White Publishinh for providing me with the ARC in exchange for my honest opinion. 

This book will be released 14th January 2016! 

Weekly Wrap Up and Stacking The Shelves

Weekly Wrap Up

This week I have finished 3 books! Yay. Normally only manage 2 but I had 2 child free afternoons and managed that one extra.

The first book I have finished was Secrets In Phoenix by Gabriella Lepore. This one has been send to me by Oftomes Publishing and I absolutely adored it. Full of magic, secrets and love. An amazing new Series to sink your teeth in. 

Blurb:When Sophie Ballester and her twin brothers Sam and Todd are uprooted from their home and sent to a remote boarding school run by their Great Aunt Ness, they stumble upon a hidden room that holds a secret—a secret that will change everything.

The people of Phoenix Holt are not what they seem.

In fact, nothing is. 

The 2nd Book I have finished is Beautiful Broken Things by Sara Barnard. This was such a beautiful heartbreaking story. It will make you cry. It will make you smile and everything in between. I received this book on Net Galley.

Blurb: I was brave
She was reckless
We were trouble

Best friends Caddy and Rosie are inseparable. Their differences have brought them closer, but as she turns sixteen Caddy begins to wish she could be a bit more like Rosie – confident, funny and interesting. Then Suzanne comes into their lives: beautiful, damaged, exciting and mysterious, and things get a whole lot more complicated. As Suzanne’s past is revealed and her present begins to unravel, Caddy begins to see how much fun a little trouble can be. But the course of both friendship and recovery is rougher than either girl realises, and Caddy is about to learn that downward spirals have a momentum of their own.

And the 3rd book was Don't Be Afraid by Daniela Sacerdoti which I have received from Black & White Publishing. I really enjoyed this one but don't want to say to much as will post my review tomorrow.

Blurb: When you've forgotten how to live, help can arrive in mysterious ways… Successful artist Isabel Ramsay has never come to terms with the tragic death of her mother. Haunted by what happened, Isabel finds her own life spiralling out of control until, one winter’s day, she gives up, unable to bear the pain of living any longer. Yet somehow she wakes up, remembering a vision of a mysterious woman who has saved her. But alone in a locked house, surely that’s impossible? With her family and friends worried out of their minds, her husband Angus finds a companion to watch over Isabel while he's away from home. Warm, wise Clara can connect with Isabel in a way no one else can, helping her face up to her painful past, rediscover her passion for art and become brave enough to live her life again. But there’s a mystery surrounding Clara: who is she, and why does Isabel feel she’s known her all her life? Don't Be Afraid is a beautiful, life-affirming story of how even the most difficult struggles can be overcome and how help can arrive in mysterious ways.

Stacking The Shelves 

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This week I have received 2 amazing books. 

The fist one is Viral by Helen Fitzgerald, which I have received from Sophie at Faber and Faber. The blurb sounds amazing and I can not wait to read this. 

Blurb:So far, twenty-three thousand and ninety six people have seen me online. They include my mother, my father, my little sister, my grandmother, my other grandmother, my grandfather, my boss, my sixth year Biology teacher and my boyfriend James.


When Leah Oliphant-Brotheridge and her adopted sister Su go on holiday together to Magaluf to celebrate their A-levels, only Leah returns home. Her successful, swotty sister remains abroad, humiliated and afraid: there is an online video of her, drunkenly performing a sex act in a nightclub. And everyone has seen it.

Ruth Oliphant-Brotheridge, mother of the girls, successful court judge, is furious. How could this have happened? How can she bring justice to these men who took advantage of her dutiful, virginal daughter? What role has Leah played in all this? And can Ruth find Su and bring her back home when Su doesn't want to be found?

And the second one is Bookishly Ever After by Isabel Bandeira. I already had this on my Amazon wish list, so you can imagine how excited I got when Spencer Hill tweeted about this being on Net Galley. I was over the moon when this got aproved. I want to squeeze this in as soon as possible. 

Blurb: In a perfect world, sixteen-year-old Phoebe Martins’ life would be a book. Preferably a YA novel with magic and a hot paranormal love interest. Unfortunately, her life probably wouldn’t even qualify for a quiet contemporary. But when Phoebe finds out that Dev, the hottest guy in the clarinet section, might actually have a crush on her, she turns to her favorite books for advice. Phoebe overhauls her personality to become as awesome as her favorite heroines and win Dev’s heart. But if her plan fails, can she go back to her happy world of fictional boys after falling for the real thing?

Beautiful Broken Things by Sara Barnard

I was brave
She was reckless
We were trouble

Best friends Caddy and Rosie are inseparable. Their differences have brought them closer, but as she turns sixteen Caddy begins to wish she could be a bit more like Rosie – confident, funny and interesting. Then Suzanne comes into their lives: beautiful, damaged, exciting and mysterious, and things get a whole lot more complicated. As Suzanne’s past is revealed and her present begins to unravel, Caddy begins to see how much fun a little trouble can be. But the course of both friendship and recovery is rougher than either girl realises, and Caddy is about to learn that downward spirals have a momentum of their own.

Oh I feel like I should use the word beautiful a lot, because this book has been beautiful, sad, funny and touching, but most of all beautiful.

Caddie and Rosie have been friends for over 10 years, despite the fact that they go to different schools. While Rosie goes to a 'normal' school Caddie goes to a private, girls only school. Because of this Caddie feels like she is missing out on life a lot, 16 now and still no boyfriend, or even the option of one. She thinks her life is rather nice and boring compared to her best friends. Things change even more when Suzanne starts a friendship with Rosie. Caddie is wary at first and rather a bit jealous, worrying that her best friend will come to like her new friend more then her. But she soon starts to build a bond with Suzanne who becomes the third person in their friendship. But the confident Suzanne is battling with her demons from her past. Only slowly do the girls realise how troubled she really is. Caddie however is always there for her friend, not always realising how this effects her own life. She begins to make bad choices to join her new friend. But how deep are Suzanne's wounds really? 

This is such a beautiful story (there it is again), I couldn't put it down. It's most of all about friendship, the friendship between Rosie and Caddie that is slightly being put to the test. But also the kind of friendship that changes you. It shows how far someone goes for their friends and how much this affects everyone. 

I love the amazing, uncomplicated friendship Rosie and Caddie have, one that feels natural and part of you. And I can fully relate to the worry a new person coming in causes. Caddie is amazing in trying to welcome the new third person even tho she is very reluctant at first. In general I just love Caddie, she is a great friend in every aspect. Even when she thinks she doesn't know the right things to say, she says exactly that. So when she finally gets to know Suzanne she becomes the exact thing her new friend needs. They build a strange kind of friendship, being completely the opposite. Caddie wanting to have more fun in her life and Suzanne needing someone she can rely on. And slowly Caddie finds out more and more about Suzanne's past and her current struggles. 

The horrific things Suzanne had to go through broke my heart every time. I absolutely appreciate the way the subject has been approached really gently and how her behaviour and past have been uncovered slowly. 

It was very interesting to see all that's happened from a friends perspective rather then Suzanne herself. To see how much she wanted to be the one to help her and maybe even safe her. How much it affected the friend, her life and even her parents. 

This is a powerful story in every way. I have gone through every emotion while reading it. No idea where it would lead me and fully enjoying every single page. It's beautifully written. I found myself wanting to be their friend too. This book is about 3 totally different girls, their very eventful year and their own ways of dealing with it all. So much can change in a year. 

I have kind of gone into this blind, falling in love with the cover and not knowing much about the book or the Author, but it was worth it. 

This is the kind of story that will stay with me for some time. I gave it 5 stars on goodreads, that was no brainer. 

Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for my copy in exchange for my honest opinion.

Published 11th February 2016