Wednesday, 1 March 2017

Why I have been absent for so long...

This is going to be my most personal and honest post. But I would like to explain why I haven't been posting and tweeting. The past 3 months have truly been the hardest in my life. At the start of December I have discovered my husband of over 11 years has been unfaithful. It broke my heart, it made me ill. I have lost all fun in life. Yet, I still wanted to make my marriage work. This wasn't the healthiest decision. Not only that it was completely pointless. One month later my husband just disappeared. Leaving behind only a letter. His things gone and his next stop the girl (much younger then either of us) he has been unfaithful with. Let me tell you I have never had my heart broken like this. It was a physical pain. I wasn't well and most of all I couldn't stay there. I have moved to the uk 11 years ago purely because I wanted to be with my husband. Without him I didn't want to stay there, I needed my family and my friends. I needed distance. My 7 year old daughter needed a sane mother. I have now been back in Germany for 6 weeks or so. Living with my mum and dad. Trying to pick up the pieces of my life. And then I got knocked down again. I got poorly, needing an operation. Nothing seems to be going my way. I didn't feel like reading or blogging at all. Forcing myself to at least read a little. I feel better now. Both physical and mentally. But the road to a new life is still a very long one. However I really want to return to my love of books and I want to review the amazing stuff I get to read. So I will be back! I promise. And soon. My first blogpost might be an amazing blogtour that I am on or even sooner. I can't wait to have all the bloggers and readers back in my life. I have missed it all so much.... 

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